| pelman | he/him | neurodivergent | artist | musician | always tired |

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last updated august 6th, 2023

hello :]
my main name is pelman, but i also go by geomery, stanel, venn, rick, and jules.
i use a whole laundry list of identities and as such, i feel like they should be listed elsewhere rather than filling this page.
i am an avid artist of various types, but my main homes are in the realms of visual and auditory art. i have been doing digital art for at least a decade, and have been making music for a little over half of one. i also occasionally attempt to write things, though they rarely end up being finished.
as a heavily neurodivergent and quite mentally ill individual, i often fail to realize my impact on the world or people around me, but i try my best to foster a healthy, safe environment for those i do speak to most frequently.
i am white, atheistic, perisex, and able bodied, which is bound to influence my opinion on the world. i do try my best to keep an open mind and internalize the stories of marginalized individuals' stories, though i am bound to still make mistakes as learning is a permanent process.

before you follow me, please note:

-i very occasionally reclaim slurs, those being queer and the f slur. i am able to reclaim these both as a member of the lgbt+ community and as a man attracted to other men. if that makes you uncomfortable, please do not interact with me.
-i post about various issues, including ones i may not be properly informed about. i am always actively searching for more information on said issues, but in the meantime i may post some things that are ill informed. please just inform me of what is correct instead of acting as though i am acting under a malicious pretense.
-i do not screen literally every single content creator that i interact with. if i interact with someone who is problematic, i likely did not know. i avoid people who openly display problematic behavior and who are marked as red on shinigami eyes. i also avoid creators who have genuine callout posts on their behavior, with evidence of harming others. interaction does not equal support, in every case.
-i use ao3 to publish my fanfictions. this does not indicate that i support the morals that the website or a great amount of its userbase holds. i simply believe that ao3 is a well structured fanfiction website with easy to navigate ui and that given its size, it is the most profitable location to publish fanfictions. if my usage of the website makes you uncomfortable in spite of this, please do not interact with me.
-i have some people who enjoy some of the media in my dfi that are still in my friend circles. these are exceptions to the rule. do not think that i will be comfortable interacting with you if we are not already friends and i figure out that you enjoy some of these pieces of media.

do not follow if:

-you fit basic dfi criteria and know that you do, including uncritically consuming "problematic" media or being involved in communities related to it
-you use transphobic slurs, even self-referrentially, with exception of the t-slur
-you support cringe culture or flop accounts
-you think that self diagnosis is impossible, even with extensive research
-you enjoy the following media or creators:
-rick and morty
-south park
-attack on titan
-vivziepop and anything she makes
-game grumps
-killing stalking/boyfriend to death/any other media that glorifies and sexualizes abuse
-pewdiepie, dream, jschlatt, or anybody who frequently collabs with these creators
-kpop bands, especially bts
-rpf in general

ask to follow if:

-you outwardly dislike any of my interests, especially hyperfixations/special interests
-you post about any of the blacklisted media or creators above, but do not enjoy them
-you like or post about mcyt content unrelated to dream or the people who collab with him
-you like or post about homestuck

if we are mutuals please tag:

-vehicular collisions, ESPECIALLY car crashes, in any context (includes sounds)
-videos of predatory animals interacting with birds (in general) or rodents (same size or smaller)
-the ps2 incorrect format disc/disc read error screen (the red "Please insert a PlayStation 2 Disc" one)
-positivity towards mothers
-alcohol/inebriation
-cigarettes/smoking (this excludes usage of marijuana, and vapes are mostly excluded)
-videos with people yelling angrily (especially adult women) (this excludes certain instances, such as a vinesauce clip or something similar)
-fingernails, ESPECIALLY long nails or darkly colored short nails (only required if a focus in irl imagery, always required in artistic imagery)
-any piece of media or creator listed in the dnfi section
catchall is #pelman dont look (if on a site with tags, like tumblr) or /pdl/ (if on a site without tags, like twitter). if on discord, spoiler and give a content warning.

(italics are special interests, underlined are hyperfixations. things in this list are bound to move around, every once in a while.)

PRIMARY INTERESTS!

-science, specifically chemical and biological science
-art, primarily visual and auditory
-worldbuilding
-no mans sky
-rabbids
-pikmin

SECONDARY INTERESTS!

-pizza tower
-miitopia
-the game and watch series of handhelds

smaller interests!

-animal crossing
-miis/related games
-rhythm heaven
-hollow knight
-splatoon
-the mother series

vague interests

-minecraft
-mario
-sonic
-undertale/deltarune
-object shows
-my singing monsters

generalized interests

-furry art/culture
-video game hacking/electronics culture
-"traditional" rhythm games, primarily osu!mania, taiko no tatsujin, and arcaea

aesthetics

-vaporwave
-glitchcore
-old web/y2k
-rave, scene, and neons
-water
-pastels
-happy domestic living situations

my fictional husbands and boyfriends:

-mr. game and watch (super smash bros/game and watch series)
-takoyama-san (parappa the rapper 2)
-barold (animal crossing)
-huck (animal crossing)
-saltwater (rhythm heaven)
-sheldon (splatoon)
-alph (pikmin)
-giuseppe (pizza tower)
-vigilante (pizza tower)

comfort characters, qpps, and other lovelies

-lloyd, jeff andonuts, and picky minch (mother series)
-colonel noodle (parappa the rapper 2)
-louie (pikmin 2)
-tall tappers (rhythm heaven)
-zote the mighty (hollow knight)
-vermin (game and watch series)
-the noise and noisette (pizza tower)

to explain a little more about myself:
i am a homo-ficto-attracted aroace genderqueer transgender woman male faggot. to break this down, i am attracted exclusively to male and masculine fictional characters and desire to be in relationships with multiple people at the same time. i am genderqueer because the way i view my gender does not fit into the mold of the "typical" transgender experience, and woman is being used as an "accessory," in ways that i cannot articulate. i should not have to explain the transgender part, i hope. i also cannot explain the faggot part in more detail than "it feels correct."
i have not gotten professionally assessed for anything, as diagnoses are extremely difficult to pursue in america when you are permanently skirting the poverty line, but i am quite sure that i am autistic with adhd, and have clinical depression and anxiety. all of these would have been genetically inherited.
with the sheer volume of traumatic events that have happened in my life, i would also be quite lucky to not have some type of ptsd. for my own safety, i will not outline said traumas. it isnt anyones business, anyways.
i do many different kinds of art in various different mediums. the primary mediums i participate in are traditional art, most often pencil-and-paper illustration, digital art, using multiple programs, and music production using fl studio, previously beepbox and several of its derivatives.
i also know how to make clay sculptures, to varying degrees of success, make kandi and other bead jewelry, and write fanfiction, which i personally think is pretty okay when it actually ends up going somewhere. i can also paint, by some definition. i used to know how to play the clarinet, but that never actually ended up going anywhere.
i am self taught in almost all artistic realms, though i have of course gotten help along the way and would be nowhere without it.

MEDIA THAT I, FOR ONE REASON OR ANOTHER, RECOMMEND YOU CONSUME

recommendation =/= endorsement. this generally is media that i recommend you consume under the grounds that it has had a significant impact on me personally, that it is a great influence to my artistic expression today, or that i just think it represents me as a person. please do not take me recommending any of this media as supporting its creators or recommending you consume their entire body of work.
images link directly to the media in most cases, except for any media put normally behind a paywall or download. find your own way to access those.

ANIMATION AND VIDEO

Battle for Dream Island

bfdi has been immensely influential towards me, my artistic expression, and the way i tell stories for a very, very long time. the earliest sections of the show are very amateurish, but thats to be expected when the first season is made by literal 12 year olds. though not exactly adult in nature or intention, i believe bfdi is still quite a powerful story that should be experienced by anyone who wants to know me better.

ONE (a.k.a. hfjone)

while not as important or influential to me as bfdi, i think that one is a very, very powerful story in and of itself. one is a story about dehumanization, loss of control, and finding power in ones own circumstances. and also about living objects. it takes an angle that ive literally never seen before in an object show and writes these objects as genuine people, forcing you to face the inherent humanity in anthropomorphization. not for the faint of heart, but definitely worth a watch if you can stomach it.

The Legend of Hei

a beautiful piece of animation and a wonderful story to boot. if you like chinese mythology, found family type narratives, or just really, really cool fight scenes, this is absolutely for you. this story about developing your own sense of morality and learning to trust the people and world around you, as well as not judging books by their covers - for better or for worse - is one you wont forget quickly. you can either rent it on youtube or go sailing the seven seas; im sure theres a torrent of information out there on the movie waiting for you if you look.

Jaymoji Deluxe (several videos)

not exactly one singular video, but several that i feel are pretty humor defining for me. if you like splatoon content, or just listening to silly bits, then "splatoon 2 but we dont have any teeth," "this is a bad splatoon video,", "eating raw meat in splatoon 2", and "i love splatoon 2 league" are all great places to start. i laugh every single time i rewatch these and they genuinely got me through a pretty rough spot after i injured my wrist during art fight 2022.

Summoning Salt (several videos)

while video essays arent generally for everyone, i believe everyone with even a vague interest in video games should watch at least one summoning salt video at some point in their lives. im quite partial to "the history of super punch-out world records" myself. the way their videos are set up, though, is engaging even if you have no prior interest in speedrunning, which i really didnt. please do give it a chance!

jan Misali (several videos)

again, showing myself as a video essay nerd, but i believe this content to be even more engaging to a more general audience, mostly considering the fact that jan misali does a significantly wider range of content to begin with. do you like rhythm heaven? do you like conlangs, specifically toki pona? how about math, like floating point or polyhedra? hm, that not your thing? how about the letters w and c? uhh... mario bros? caramelldansen? ...homestuck? just look around, youll find something you like.

MUSIC

KITCALIBER - HALCYONDAZE

this is definitely where the "recommendation =/= endorsement" clause comes in hard. i am NOT saying you should go and listen to every halley labs release. im not even saying you should listen to releases other than this one. i am, however, saying that you should listen to this at least once. if you are at all a fan of rock or similar genres, and you like albums that tell stories - even if those stories arent immediately obvious - this is an album for you. probably actually my #1 favorite.

thejonymyster - angels

im in it! isnt that enough of a reason? jokes aside, this is still the "magnum opus" of jonys discography. having known him since february 2018, and having been best friends with him for about as long, i am probably biased in putting this up here, but i genuinely do believe this is an amazing album and that people should listen to it. its got a variety of genres, so youre likely to find at least one song that appeals to you! my personal recs are fallenangel, groundangel, waterangel, and angeltag.

GYNX - SPARKLE SIGNAL

my largest inspiration for my first album exclusively produced in fl studio, and an amazing album overall! this is probably my favorite release under the actual GYNX alias, and a very, very well produced and put together album overall. it does occasionally tap into some tropes i dislike in my breakbeat-child-genre type music, but those instances are so small and spaced out that it really doesnt affect my overall experience. smile (dont go vip) is the absolute standout of this release in my opinion, though phantasmogoria is also fantastic.